My Own

Now, this saying, "My own." has a lot of meaning to it. I've started working on my own classroom. I've adjusted to living in my own room in my friend's family's home. I've moved out on my own. I'm on my own. That's a lot to take in. At first (a week before moving), I was extremely anxious. I was crying, barely eating, and visiting with as many people as possible. On one hand, it felt like I was never going to see these people ever again, on the other, I would see these people over break since teachers do get holidays, but I felt these feelings interchangeably. Having those two feelings going back and forth made my anxiety worse than ever.

Now that I am up here, I am doing a lot better by keeping busy. Other than working on my classroom, I've been going to the gym. Today, I met with a trainer for a free session that comes with the membership. It ended terribly. He sent me home after I almost passed out because I did not have a midmorning snack, therefore my blood sugar plummeted even with a hearty lunch. I am determined to come out strong for tomorrow's session.

I did however, had to take a trip this past weekend to re-energize my battery and enthusiasm. I walked into an almost empty classroom and wasn't as shocked as others with this fact therefore made me stressed out to the extreme. The trip was so relaxing and comforting that I went back into today feeling not as overwhelmed. I've got a new sense of determination after sitting down and coming up with a game plan to tackle the bulletin boards. It's the only thing I can do right now until furniture and cleaning are checked off the list by others.

The only picture I can share is me jumping into the Potomac River. I could say something stupid like, "It's me jumping into the real world! Everyone better watch out for this girl!", but I'm not going to because the student loan payments and my first pay check haven't come in yet ;o)

P.S.- As I drove back from Richmond, I kept thinking I was driving back to Roanoke. I thought I would never ever say this, but I am homesick. I miss you guys.